I started off the day with a wonderful yoga practice at 7am. While I was at yoga I asked Ryan to run to the store and pick up some last minute items. I have been doing all kinds of research from women who got positive results and what they did on the day of their transfer and what they did during the 2WW. Of course it was all over the place and I really don't feel like eating one kiwi will actually be the deal maker but it really helps my mental health to continue to do all I can to make this miracle happen. So off to yoga I went and off to the store he went. When I came back home I was greeted with a really sweet card from him. I then took a bath since it would be a while before I can take a nice long hot one again and Ryan took Parker on a walk, then off we went.
We went to SDFC and checked in. There was a friendly face in the lobby, a friend's mother was keeping her company before her ER. She gave me a giant hug before I went in and it was very comforting. First stop was acupuncture. Ryan kept me company in the room. Then about 5 minutes in, I realized I forgot my awesome socks. Ryan ran back home to get them. Staying warm is one of the good luck, fingers crossed tricks to try. So I stayed and did my treatment sans socks for now, but rockin my awesome Motley Crue shirt. Oh and we listened to Without You on the way to the clinic. It was our song at our wedding and always puts a smile on our faces.
|This isn't a stock photo, this is our actual embryo. |
Our perfect and wonderful embryo.
This is the one the survived the thaw strong and intact.
|This is our other embryo that needs some extra love and prayers.|
We have not given up and hope.
This one fights just a little harder than it should have to.
About 2-3 years ago the technology of freezing embryos wasn't where it is today. Today there is very little chance of losing an embryo in the thaw, about 4% chance really. Well we have a way of always falling into those tiny minute crap odds. One of ours started to leak and collapse during the thaw. It was so unexpected. Of all the things that could go wrong, this didn't even register as a possibility. Ryan wasn't back yet and I just crumbled into the arms of the embryologist. As soon as Ryan walked in and saw me crying, I'm sure he knew. I went from her arms around me to his. We were both truly devastated. We collected ourselves and the doctor came in. We talked about what had happened and what the next steps would be, The good news is that our other embryo did great and was looking really good. The second embryo, while breaking down, still had a few cells in it and he recommended still transferring that one. I asked if we should still have hope and his answer was that the odds weren't 0 so we should remain hopeful. So with my fancy socks on we moved forward with the FET.
|The bright white line below the green arrow are our embryos.|
After the FET I went back to acupuncture for my follow up treatment. I then came home, ate some soup, only warm food for the next two weeks and practically melted onto the couch. Between all the stress of the day I was exhausted. Later, I watched comedies on Netflix. I had read that laughing is really good, both for your emotional self as well as it physically helps increase blood flow to your stomach muscles.